Life lately

A lot of life has life-ed since I last wrote, and there's no clean way to segue from it, so in a nutshell and with no gentle lead in, over the last month both my brother-in-law and my father-in-law have died. C has made two trips home to Colorado and we leave again this week for the third. It is sad and awful and so much different to be on this side of grief. I don't know that I really appreciated how helpless it feels to be on this side when my parents died. I'm sad, because they'd been my family longer than they hadn't, but at the same time, it doesn't necessarily feel like "mine." So all that to say, it feels weird but also important to continue to appreciate all the happy, silly little things too. And then on top of that, I have a lot of feelings right now about all the things, and I think this might be the thing that might actually break me from social media because FFS. 

So I'm going to post some fun, silly, grateful-for-life things next, but in the meantime, please take the picture if you think in your heart, "I want to take a picture but I'm not sure it's the time" I'm so grateful for both of these